Today is a sentimental day for me.
It’s a day that floods my mind with emotions.
A day that brings back a slew of memories.
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May 27, 2007,
I lost a close friend to a tragic car accident.
For the first time in my life, death and I came face to face.
Within a moments time, I slid into a tunnel of darkness.
Depression.
Anger.
Barganing.
Denial.
I was angry at God.
I felt helpless.
Broken.
I cried harder than I ever knew I could cry.
On this day,
I lost a friend that touched my heart in more ways than he ever knew.
Jonathan taught me to never live in fear.
Live each day as if it’s your last.
Be self sufficent.
Work hard. Play hard.
Believe in yourself.
No goal is out of reach.
Jonny was the most genuine and sensitive soul I have ever met.
As I stood in front of 200 people at his funeral and gave a eulogy ,
I knew right then and there he was where he was supposed to be.
God had better plans for dear Jonathan.
Today, would have been Jonathan’s 29th birthday.
I know at this very moment, Jonathan is smiling down on us all rejoicing in heaven.
I will never forget the days following his untimely death.
It feels like yesterday.
The desperation you feel while searching for a man that has been missing for 3 days,
is a feeling I will never be able to explain.
I truly believe that it takes an experience like this,
{a face to face with RAW emotion}
for one to truly appreciate lives delicacy.
Is some ways this experience made me more resilient.
A bit rough around the edges.
Almost numb.
But I’ll tell you what…
Losing this dear friend forever changed my heart.
It forced me to grow up.
Treat life a bit more seriously.
Appreciate my family and friends.
Today I lift up Jonathan’s dear family in prayer.
While time never fully heals the pain,
I pray that they have peace and hope in their hearts.
Peace while on this earth. Hope in Jesus for eternity.
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Thank you Jonathan for forever touching my heart.
You are missed by many.