Happy 3rd Birthday Landyn

Dearest Landyn,

3 years ago today, our lives were forever changed. On August 5th at 5:13 in the morning, the world blessed us with a 7 lb 2 oz baby girl that was all things perfect. That moment will forever remain the best day of my life. You gave me a title I could only dream of and filled a void that I never knew existed. And while this glorious day seems like yesterday, so much life has happened since then. So much growth for you as a little person, and so much growth for me as a momma. It’s easy to look upon the happy times and smile, and skip over the up all nights or the point when our family began to crumble. But it’s seeing how far we’ve come though it all, and watching the pieces fall together in the past few months, that has me able to revisit the hard times and see how miraculously time has healed the pain. Watching how we’ve bridged the gap between happy and difficult has me seeing first hand that everything will be ok. 

I am aware that I am the author of your story, and I strive everyday to make it worthwhile. I strive to teach you that there is no blueprint to follow or norm to live up to. I try to stay clear of the how it’s supposed to be’s for I know our story is uniquely our own.

{one year old}

After the events of the past year, I made a promise to you that I would do things differently the next time around. I would be selfish for us. I would look within the core of my being and only choose happiness. I’ve learned to wrap up past experiences the right way, so we can give our future new life, new memories. I will go to the ends of the earth to give you a strong family unit one day with brothers and sisters and a home rich in tradition.

{two years old}

Happy 3rd Birthday Landyn Noella. We may be celebrating your fiery, determined, passionate, curious little self, on a smaller scale than last year, but CELEBRATE we will. You have stollen my whole heart and I am so grateful things worked out the way they did. How beautiful you make my life.

La La LOVE you baby girl.

Love,

Mommy